I like numbers. I especially like numbers when they deal with money. I like to control those numbers as much as I possibly can. It makes me a very dedicated and excellent treasurer. However not being able to completely control those numbers raises my anxiety through the roof. I need to know not only where my money is going, but where it is coming from as well.
Translating from my personal life to my life as the treasurer for MAMO, it works well. However, we don’t have a steady income stream yet, and it’s been awhile since we’ve gotten a donation. When the expenses are beginning to pile up, I tend to get a little stressed out. Ok, so a little stressed is an understatement. I panic. Full out panic. I run over numbers, and try to stress to other members that we just don’t have the money and start to do everything in my power to start to get money to come in.
Everything that is, but pray.
Giving full control over my finances to God is something that does not come easy to me. I would rather sit and worry than simply ask the Great Provider to do what He does best. Whenever I begin to sit and worry, God reminds me who is in complete control.
This past Sunday, I had one of those panic moments. I have a lot of personal financial responsibility coming up as well as financial work with MAMO. I started to panic. Just then, a song came on the radio and two lines stuck out to me. “If He can hold the world He can hold this moment” and “Even the sparrow knows”. The message was clear. God had me in His hands at the moment of my freak out, telling me it was ok. I didn’t need to have panic attack because He is ultimately in control. The second line was to remind me that God knows all of needs, and will provide for me. Just as the sparrow knows where his food is coming from without worry, I can trust God will provide without worry.
After calming down, I started to think of all the ways that God has provided for MAMO and I was blown away at all the things I was discounting! He brought an amazing team to us, willing donors who believe in the mission of MAMO and companies that are willing to come alongside MAMO to accomplish our goals. We have been so blessed by a God who provides. I had temporarily lost sight of that, but now I remember.
I am so humbled by being allowed on this journey as we touch the lives of the people in Uganda. The need is real. God has heard the cries of His children and is sending people to answer. We have on our side Jehovah Jireh, the LORD Who Provides.